My How Time Can Get Away From You

Wow!  It has been so long since I have logged onto my blog and even looked at it.  I feel like I stepped back into a moment in time of my past.  So much has changed since I created this blog for a previous class here at Kaplan.  A quick run down of all the events:  My husband and I moved back to Washington from California once his 4 year term was finished in the Marine Corps, unfortunately everything started to unravel once we got home...  The year and a half was a struggle of PTSD, separation, many moves, trying to work on things and buying a house, the divorce becoming finalized, and reworking on things at the present moment.  During all of the chaos, there was much depression, apathy, meltdowns, breakdowns, letting an abusive ex boyfriend control and mentally, emotional, and verbally abuse me, losing my job, not being able to find a job, not being able to receive assistance, etc...  All while, school and my determination for 4.0 terms and my animals were the only things that kept me hanging on.  Finally, I was able to get into the class Stress: Critical Issues in Management and Prevention and a week straight of a major breaking point of stress in my life, I realized that I gave away all of the control in my life, and decided that I had had enough.  I took back control of my life, I quit smoking cigarettes, I got back into hiking, which is one of my healthy addictions, I reclaimed my confidence and got a job, I got back into taking my supplements everyday, I made a rule that I was only allowed to post something positive on Facebook, and so forth.  For the last month and a half my ex husband and I have been working on things, though there was much stress due to a female roommate that caused many problems, who is thankfully gone.  Lately my gut instincts have been super sensitive and I have much success actually listening to them!  However, much of the stress was caused by no one listening to me about my gut instincts going off like crazy that this female roommate was bad news until she bailed out with out paying the other half of the rent due.  As of recent stress levels have started to increase especially working a retail job at one of the top busiest stores at the mall, which has been setting off my panic and anxiety attacks with the increase in volume of people and a month long bout of bad luck.  One of the things that I learned from last term is that I may have the codependency personality type that is stress prone but I am also the survivor personality type that is stress resistant, so everyday that things go wrong or things become stressful I remind myself  that I am a survivor and that I have grand big places to go and be in life.  Here's to the start of another term that offers great information and resources that will benefit my life and those that are a part of my life.